Me, My thoughts and I... section 2

Sorry guys, busy day, busy day.

Anyways back to the Superheros Redemption, I'll tell you when I finish exactly what it was supposed to be like... really different to what it is now?! Interrupted again... dinner time...

Ok, back. Anyhow's I really loved writing it because it took the characters above and beyond where anyone had taken them before. Like with Ranger crying (more on that later - it's so weird saying Ranger cried. Seems so weak. AH!) and Steph being so close to him and the Rangeman guys and so miserable and lonely at the start and stuff; it really stimulates the story more I think. Most things weren't planned in this story - at the start I had a basic storyline mapped out but its again gone above and beyond what I had expected. I'm going to go through the story now so you can get a more in depth insight. And I can spill my guts. Enjoy!

Chapter 1:
Rangers POV
Ok so it was only like three sentences long. It looked longer when I handwrote it. lol, crappy excuse. I think if I was going to edit it, I would put a bit more foundation into it, it just doesn't get quite enough of the feelings I'm aiming for. So it needs a bit of fleshing out.

Stephs POV
This bit was such a sad bit to write, I find whenever I write that I often experience the emotions the characters are experiencing which can bring me to extremes at times. One of the reasons I find that I find emotion so easy to write Is that I try to get inside the character and imagine what they would be feeling, what their reactions would be. Except it wouldn't sound as tacky as that. It works though, the results are pretty genuine far as I can tell. This bit was so defeated, so lonely and so miserable to write and read. A different emotion for steph. The bit about her running... well I'm a bit of an excersise junkie and I can't stand her lazing around eating all that junk food so I said she went running for ranger. More like running for me. Lol, lab rat! The last paragraph about her realising that she had to get over Ranger.. Well, I was going to put in a flashback of her realisation - it was too... I dunno... too set up if you get my drift? Not quite believeable. But simpler to write - I think I ended up just forgetting anyways.

At the Bonds Office
The grass wasn't planned, like the bet (but I loved the line about how everybody does it), or the FTA's or Joe and Joyce. Actually pretty much the entire scene wasn't planned. I thought it was fuckin hilariously though. To write at least. I get the impression from some readers that they felt it slightly amusing as well. The whole thing about Joe and Joyce... well I dunno. I was fed up with them just having food fights and sniping at each other, I felt that one of them should make a definate move against the other. And no one ever included Joyce in most other fanfic stories so I started trying to think of ways to put her in somehow. And I came up with Joe and Joyce. And they will turn up later in the story just to hint you know?!

Chapter 2
The whole threatening thing was heaps fun to write, but I felt that I didn't quite get all the emotion across that I wanted. Like multiply whats there by ten and you might get close. Probably would improve with an edit. Maybe I'll edit the whole story once it's finished - I think it could improve a lot.

Chapter 3
Yea, the euphoria was a little short lived in the story - and I would have prefered to have time on her own to have her little think about Joe but it didn't fit in with the story so i just had another short section... but yea. The whole bit about Miller.. well that was half planned after I thought of him. Getting him in the gonads was a late edition. Originally I was going to have her waving her gun everywhere, then having her stun him while he mooned her... but then it eventually evolved into the crown jewels. The bit about him nearly raping her... well that I think was a little too much. but maybe called for. maybe.

Haa, the bit about the car was a last minute addition too. Being able to blow the car by shooting the gas tank is actually a myth, its not possible (well maybe REALLY remotely if you want to think hard) but I thought she needed to be shot. DOn't ask me why?! Just thought it needed excitement. Next chapter!

Chapter Four
Ahh chapter four. This is where I actually had started my plan, rough as it was. The original idea of the story was to have a series of gifts from Ranger which would eventually redeem him to Steph - but it has turned into so much more than that. I knew he was going to give her bottles of the flowery stuff and bulgari but I didn't think of the heart until I had nearly finished handwriting the section, and the engrving until I was typing it.. niiice. Talk about last minute additions.

Next. Rangers visit. I was actually in two minds about this. I wanted it cleared up what he wanted and meant by the gift, but I also wanted him to be shrouded in mystery - like steph would long to see him but could etcetcetc. So I put it in but made it just short enough to (hopefully) retain some of the mystery. I hope.

Chapter Five.
The necklace. Yeah, originally I was going to hve him give it to her later that day but i figured it fitted there better. So I put it there. I dunno why I put it on top of the gun, I just thought it was cute. So I did.

The gap of the few days. Again it fitted what I wanted but wasn't planned. But I liked that the presents were no longer like clockwork coming everyday, that they were more spaced out. Like Ranger took the time to decide when to give them to her. Moving on....

The explosion. Ok, this was SORT OF planned. I knew I wanted something to explode... a car ... ad that since I'm going for originality I didn't want it done by a molotov or firebomb or normal bomb. I wanted something different. So I came up with a C4, which essentially is a putty like substance which has the same consistency as putty. (I know that doesn't make sense, I can't be bothered to change it.) Anyway you can have just a normal detonator or an electronic detonator (which is more complicated to build and can go wrong more ways). So I opted for a normal detonator which is just a normal fuse. Less likely to go wrong, less accurate but wouldn't kill them (which is what I wanted). So I spent a while researching that and the amount I needed to put on/in the car. Which I didnt end up putting in anyways. I also hadn't planned on them getting hurt so badly. But I put it in just to see where it would go.

Chapter Six
Nyeh. Angsty to read, Angsty to write. The end is SO ANGSTY OMG! ... I should have just left it there to torture everybody! I didn't think. Oh well, theres always a next time. Hopefully.

Chapter Seven
The bit about Steph's zone, it ended up always annoying me that she couldn't accept what was happening without questioning it so I put it in. Phew. So much better. But I know its part of the books and I like it despite my annoyance.

Chapter Eight
Ahh, chapter eight. ANother angsty one. Since i've slacked off the last two chapters lets go in depth.

the sleeping.. well just an Idea, I didn't want to keep skipping to a few days later so I put that little section in there.

Next bit, I loved the line about all the things she could do when not on painkillers and sedatives. Very funny even if i do say so myself. I could just imagine her bouncing off the walls and I wanted it to be happy after angsty so I put that in there too. Tank? Well what can I say. I couldn't resist. I always imagine Tankie as a big softy so i loved having him getting close to steph. Fun to write I can tell you. Having Rangeman come and greet her was a little unrealistic about them all knowing her I know, but I really wanted it in there! It was fun to have! Made her feel like she actually had unwavering support and a family which actually loved her no matter what. Unlike her real family. The happiest weeks of her life - I think thats perfectly believable. I think she would have enjoyed the love of the rangeman guys as well as Tank Bobby and Lester. As for Lesters cast-art, funny. Funny funny. Wait, did I put that in yet? oops no. Don't read that yet. It hasn't happened yet.

Ranger's Office. Sigh. No idea what made me do it. Just.. I really have no idea. I don't even remember when i wrote it. I knew I wanted to have him cry (CRY??!!) in one of my stories, so I stuck it in there. Cry. Ranger crying. It sounds so weird when you say it. Or think it, whatever. I just couldn't imagine him doing something that is perceived as so weak. But thats why i put it in there I guess - I want to be more individual in my ideas, challenge the readers views of the characters. And I really wanted that about Ranger in there. Most of it was just impulse but I really loved the scene after it was finished - there's not a lot if anything I would change about it. Grief. I knew when you think he is grieving when she is still alive strange... but it makes sense to me. Its the best way to describe the emotion i thought he was experiencing. Anyways the chapter breaks here. More angst to come.

Chapter Nine
Oh the angst of it all. I love the last line.. impulse as well. This is a very impulsive story now. But I really love it. The chapters so short theres not much to say about it. But I love it. I love this story.

I'm sorry I didn't get around to updating the story tonight, I was just busy, and sometimes I just need a break you know? I'll regret it in the morning when I have no reviews to read. I love reading reviews, they make it so worthwhile. Its like heaps of people read the story, but all those who dont review I dont know if they liked it or not. It's like they didnt - I dont know! So I dont know how popular or othrwise my work is with readers. I can get a vague idea from favs/alerts/reviews but they are oftn from a select band of people who always read and review my work all the time. It's weird you know? Frustrating. Thats why im always calling for more reviews. Anyhows.

No doubt you're bored out of your wits by now, all i can say is that the next chapter will be out tomorrow sometime (possibly two if you're lucky... or if I can bother my ass) so yep. Looking forward to reading what you think!

schaefy

PS: It took me exactly an hour and three minutes to write this. I have no life. lol.